possibilities of peetering along the currents of traveling, finding myself groping for hope among concrete trails...i am overwhelmed by the volume of clutter, singing among saints, and bewildered children. musing in tangles of sighs, laughter and embraces that span greetings and good-byes. deciphering all of this along edges of curses and blessings.

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

equity

recovering. restoring by shingled sunshine of windows. i recall memories of shards of lives that i have contributed to their hurts. and i am convicted of my sin. congested memories of fatal insertions and bellowing tears. yet, the depths, there is restoration and redemption. that is the gospel story. forgiveness in the center of our despair. all that reduction becomes convergence...and i realize...that God is so merciful.

Monday, May 09, 2005

discovery time

i find that i am so embattled with moments of distraction and devotion. i lose my heart to the most mundane activities of surfing through memories, or sucked into the worlds pacifying potraits of significance. but there is this beautiful extension of the hands of God and this gentle voice that is hidden in silence gives me such a moment of understanding...and i surrender to it...with revolving affection and there is so much that i fail to really understand...

my wedding day is coming and somehow it is all so surreal...sharing voices with another in the evening and mornings, to practice our community in love, to wrestle through moments of selfless love...sigh...what do i know...?

here is song that has touched me recently...

Sea Of Faces by Kutless

I see the city lights all around me
Everyone's obscure
Ten million people each with their problems
Why should anyone care

And in Your eyes I can see
I am not just a man, vastly lost in this world
Lost in a Sea of Faces
Your body's the bread, Your blood is the wine
Because you traded Your life for mine

Sometimes my life it feels so trivial
Immersed in the greatness of space
Yet somehow you still find the time for me
It's then You show me Your love

And In Your eyes I can see
And in Your arms I will be
I am not just a man, vastly lost in this world
Lost in a Sea of Faces
Your body's the bread, Your blood is the wine
Because you traded Your life for mine

If only my one heart
Was all you'd gain from all it cost
Well I know you would have still been a man
With a reason
To willingly offer your life

I am not just a man, vastly lost in this world
Lost in a Sea of Faces
Your body's the bread, Your blood is the wine
Because you traded Your life for mine

Just one in a million faces